Monthly Archives: November 2010

Confused.

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Why is it that wise decisions are usually hard decisions to make? Such as… I want a baby and I want one now. We did some fertility treatments, but not very much due to lack of funds. Now we think we may want to adopt, but we’ve got some bills that need to be paid off. I think that I’d feel much better if we could pay these bills and be able to put any extra money toward adoption or fertility treatments. I really don’t know what God’s plan is in my life and I’m not going to try to force any more issues that are on my agenda. I guess I’m pretty much open to anything at this point. You see I’m the kinda girl who has to have a plan. I like to have an idea of what’s going to happen when it happens. I’ve even considered going to the psychic that is on the highway close to my house. I’m glad that I haven’t stopped by though. In the mean time I guess I can continue to have my nieces and nephews over to stay and try to have as much fun as I can with them. I’m really looking forward to the holidays, and my dream is that I have my whole family at my house Christmas Eve. I’m not sure if it’s going to happen, because my sister is being a pain about being around my mom right now over something that happened two years ago. I’m really working on her.

Right now work is going really well and I love working only on the weekends. Here lately there’s not been a whole lot of low-census. There is definitely a baby boom going on right now. So since I like to have a plan… my plan is to work and pay off bills.

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